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Thursday, November 30, 2006

Normality

I met a devil woman,
She took my heart away,
She said, I had it comin' to me,
But I wanted it that way.

I think that any love is good lovin', and
So I took what I could get,
Oooh, oooh she looked at me with those big brown eyes
And said...

You ain't seen nothin' yet,
B-B-B-Baby, you just ain't seen nothin' yet,
Here's something that you're never gonna forget,
B-B-B-Baby, you just ain't seen nothin' yet.

XOXO,
Skoly

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

The principals of life

So here is what is going on with that teaching job that I wrote about a little while back. I called the principals of two different schools who had job openings and never heard back from them. So just to keep him informed I e-mailed the original guy that I had met with and let him know the status of my plight and that I would continue to try. He e-mailed me back and told me that he would call the schools himself and bring me up in a meeting he has on thursday!!!! How amazing is that?!?!?

I have this horrible fear that people don't mean what they say to the full extent that they say it, like "oh we're thrilled that you're coming for the whole weekend" I think that means "we'd love to meet you and if we have to open up our family to you for an entire weekend to do it I guess that's what we'll have to do even though we'd rather just have coffee and be done with it". So when the principal expressed interest in getting me hired into the school system and said "I'll do whatever I can to help you out" I thought what he really mean't was..."I will e-mail you some information and you can put me on your list of references".

God bless people that mean what they say, and God help me to believe them.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Everybody's doin' it

So of course I had to follow....



You scored as Neo, the "One". Neo is the computer hacker-turned-Messiah of the Matrix. He leads a small group of human rebels against the technology that controls them. Neo doubts his ability to lead but doesn't want to disappoint his friends. His goal is for a world where all men know the Truth and are free from the bonds of the Matrix.




Neo, the "One"

79%

Indiana Jones

75%

El Zorro

75%

Captain Jack Sparrow

71%

Maximus

67%

Batman, the Dark Knight

58%

William Wallace

50%

The Terminator

46%

James Bond, Agent 007

46%

Lara Croft

42%

The Amazing Spider-Man

33%

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Sunday, November 26, 2006

Allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you

So I came to the stunning realization over this holiday weekend that Elisabeth really is leaving, and that there is an overwhelming possibility that I will cry.

Alot.

I just re-found her and now she's going away again. Granted it will not be until february but still as of mid-december which is rapidly aproaching I will not be able to call her up and meet her at Open Eye to distract her from papers or have her show up at the apartment with a grocery bag full of food that we will consume in one evening. Whatever will become of me!

Monday, November 20, 2006

Passion and.....well.....passion

Ever wonder about the random turns our lives take? How did we all end up the way we did and why do some people spiral off the edge and others hold fast and many of us settle some where in the middle. And why is one person's "middle ground" so different from anothers and what about....what about everything.

It's just interesting that's all I'm saying we begin with amazing plans and unstoppable desires, so how do we get off track? or are we really on track and the original plan was off?

I have certain things that I cannot talk about and sit still at the same time. They excite and energize me just to think about them. I love photography, passionately, I love seeing the photos as I look at the world before I even hold the camera up to my eye. I love the sound of the shutter especially on a time exposure, I love the feel and weight of the camera in my hand, I love the negatives held up to the light and the finished work with all it's beautiful imperfections that remind me that I have a long way to go but that at least I'm moving. When I talk about it my face lights up my eyes dance and my heart races.

This is love.

But that being said...I have a camera, and yet I don't shoot....why?

I believe I am scared. To commit completely, let go of the edge, and throw myself (Kiai and all) wholeheartedly into something that I love that much only to have it fall through for some reason. As long as I am only devoting myself to a profession I half care about then it's okay if it doesn't work out. No broken hearts, no shattered dreams just a shrug, oh well, let's move on.

But what, hypothetically speaking, would happen if I just went for it. Stopped doing the sure thing and just jumped. What would happen?

Friday, November 17, 2006

God, Faith and Table waiting

So I was waiting tables yesterday and had to stay late through a series of random frustrating events. I was beginning to kick myself for turning down the 8-5 position but only half-heartedly. I do love waiting tables and by having to stay late I made enough money to go to the UT tournament this weekend.

Well my last table was very nice and we started talking and they asked me about my future career goals and to make a long story shory (because I only have 4 more minutes on my comp time at the library) the guy is a principal for one of the to rated publuc schools in the area and I met with him this morning to fill out applications and discuss the possibility of employment. CRAZY!!!!!!

So that's what's up in my life right now. I may have a career, I may have nothing, I may end up in Peru trudging through the jungle or teaching special needs children in Orange County. Regardless I will follow God and be okay.

I love the way life works out and doesn't work out and makes you cry and makes you worry and surprises you with the most spectacular events and then awes you with the beauty of the everyday. God never ceases to amaze me in His never ending grace and desire to show me His love. Everytime I doubt He comes through and shows me what a silly little creature I was. I question and He answers. I ask and He gives. I worship Him and He showers me with an unimaginable love that takes my breath away and moves me to tears.

Maybe I'll come back when I have more time and edit this crazy post so that it has some sort of coherency

probably not though.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Six hours of heaven

So basically I'm in love with Mr. Darcy.

Well, okay let's be honest, I've been in love with him since I was ten years old and have spent vast amounts of time curled up in comfortable chairs with him every so often throughout my childhood and adolescence. I had not, however, had the pleasure of meeting him until tonight. Elisabeth and I spent the evening, the night and portions of this morning living vicariously through Elizabeth Bennet and it was...well.....amazing. Large amounts of fried food and sugar, a block of cheese and a liter of cheerwine may also have been involved.

I feel that in the past I have put a great deal of emphasis on my guy friends and my adoration for them. I have only just recently discovered the true enjoyment that can only come from eating continuously in the company of other women. Not to mention that guy friends would probably not have the stamina for the incessant giggling and swooning and then of course there's "the look" that invariably makes us all melt off the couch simultaneously.

I really love the fact that I'm a girl

...and that Colin Firth is not.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

That rainy day feeling

As I listen to the rain against the roof and window and the soothing sound of the water running down the rainspout I curl up in my cozy apartment on my amazing reading chair with my dog at my feet and the only thing that comes to my mind is.....my car is filling with water as we speak.

Stupid rain.

Monday, November 06, 2006

I know me very well at least as far as I can tell...

So my roomies computer went down which means that free wireless at the complex doesn't do us a whole lot of good. Coupled with not having cable I have no idea what is really going on in the world except for the few minutes of radio listening I do in the car, which is usually consumed by classic rock music anyway. So I guess it's my own fault if I don't know what's going on.

As far as the rest of my life...I have a job now it's just waiting tables, but you know what shut up everybody at least I'm working again.

So I thought the title ironic since I had the revelation today, this weekend actually, that I really have no idea what I need. I have changed so much since last january that it really surprises me. One of my really good friends pointed out that over the course of the last several months I had graduated, gone to Peru, moved three times, changed states, social circles, and jobs...which I know of course since I was the one doing all that crap...but at the same time it struck a chord with me when I heard it from somebody else. So it actually makes total sense for me not to know where I'm going or what I really need or want in life. That's where God comes in so I don't really have to worry about it persay, but I think that I really should respect the fact that I've aged several years over the last four months and I should really give myself a chance to settle.

I learned this weekend that I am incredibly mellow. Now of course I still enjoy the occassional roll down a grassy hill, don't get me wrong or think that I've grown up too much. But my crazy spastic outbursts are now just that, random outbursts in an otherwise mellow lifestyle. I don't need people to entertain me and I don't want to feel like I have to entertain people. I love nothing more than just being.....except maybe ice cream....I really REALLY love ice cream.