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Thursday, March 30, 2006

Sleepless in Carrollton

So it's 5:34am right now and I'm awake...have been since since 7:30am. Couldn't sleep, don't really know why, I'm afraid to now 'cause I'll never wake up. On the plus side I read the entire first Harry Potter book. I guess that's a plus side anyway, I don't know.

Have you ever been scared of nothing? no reason no scary books or movies to excite the imagination just out of nowhere get scared? That's a wierd feeling. That happened to me last night...or I guess now it's the night before last. Strange.

So I'm glad Stu's online...why he's up at this hour I don't know, but at least I can rest assured he has nothing better to do than keep me company until it's socially acceptable for me to be up and about.

Well here comes the sun...maybe I'll try and take a nap for a few minutes...

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Nostalgia...

Strange how a song can transport you not only to a different time and place, but also to a totally different state of mind. It's really quite amazing from a behavioral perspective. Why is it that we connect so strongly with sensory things? Smells do basically the same thing, like a particular perfume that takes me back to that summer when I was 18.......anyway...

The other day I was having a perfectly rotty day at work, the weather was bad and I was in trouble for paperwork issues I had no control over. I get into my car turn the radio on and suddenly it's spring of '01, I'm young and in love with life flying down the road with the window's down drunk on the breeze and high on living. Then the song changes and I'm 11 years old running like mad 'cause Josh is right on my heels and I just grabbed the flag. Suddenly a messed up payroll and an office full of invoices doesn't seem to matter any more. They could have fired me that day and I wouldn't have blinked, I might actually have enjoyed it. I think that's just amazing.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Dear God

So happy, so excited, so scared out of my mind! I give you me, mind body and soul, mold this broken girl into a woman you'll be proud of, a suitable part of your Son's perfect bride. In the fury of the storm I see your power, my fear tempered by love and transformed to awe. In the delicate working of pastel petals I see your gentleness and my heart delights. In the grandeur of the heavens ablaze in sunset in the sheer beauty of this world that you let me play in, I see you, I love you, I fear and adore you. God I'm overcome by your expressions of love, you reach out to touch me even when I run. So by faith with no map, I'll follow your path, if by love with no end you'll take my hand. I pledge now my life, my heart and my strength, to serve only you my beloved King.

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Lost agression...

Where oh where has my competitive spirit gone? I have lost all desire to be the best of anything. Why is that? I used to not only give Anka a run for her money in Spanish class but beat her grades alot of times. When did I stop caring? Why did I stop caring? I know I'm not as proud as I once was, but have I taken it to the extreme? Have I become soft and non threatening? What happened to the viscious fighter that would never settle for second place? Don't get me wrong, I still like to win, but beating the other person just doesn't drive me the way it used to. Strange...