Lost agression...

Where oh where has my competitive spirit gone? I have lost all desire to be the best of anything. Why is that? I used to not only give Anka a run for her money in Spanish class but beat her grades alot of times. When did I stop caring? Why did I stop caring? I know I'm not as proud as I once was, but have I taken it to the extreme? Have I become soft and non threatening? What happened to the viscious fighter that would never settle for second place? Don't get me wrong, I still like to win, but beating the other person just doesn't drive me the way it used to. Strange...